Reality Sets In
A few years ago, I remember excitedly bringing up the idea of adoption to Kenny. This was well before we were married. Adopting a child is simply something I have always wanted to do. I mentioned this to Kenny with some trepidation, because it would have been devastating for me if he hadn’t wanted to adopt. And although we have definitely had our moments of doubt through the years, we are well into the adoption process now. All that really remains is that we need to be matched with a specific child. This is called a referral.
I know this is the year of change. Kenny will be starting a new job around July and we will become (God willing) a family of three. These are good changes. But I realized recently that I’m going to have to make some radical changes. You see everyone in our lives hasn’t been supportive of the fact that we’re adopting a child. And I just realized, that I’m done trying convince people that I’m doing the right thing. It’s a choice between me, Kenny, and God. Nobody else really has any say in it. Lately, I’ve been letting the negative people get me down. Before, I thought it was a part of my cross to bear, to educate others so that they can see that adoption is a good thing and we’re doing it for the right reasons. Perhaps, this is still the case. But I now know that I no longer have to put up with people who hurt us or who are who so focused on their own conviction that they have no empathy for the human consequences of their decisions. In a way, by distancing ourselves from people who don’t support our adoption, we are also protecting our future child.
I know God’s got this. Please pray for us. Pray with us. And pray that God will match us with a child soon and watch over our future child in the meantime.